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Friday, November 02, 2007

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness

where did the bubbly iris go?
good question. but i don't know. i guess you killed her.
i'm turning into someone like you. i really don't want to but, i don't know anymore.
maybe i'm jealous. i probably am. jealous that your dream has finally come true. and it's taking mine away.
not that it was my dream or anything.
ARGHGHHHGHGH what am i talking about man.
i'm being so stupid. i should just forget it. maybe NZ will take my mind off all this. and maybe after i'm back it will all magically be fine again (:
NZ in 20 hr 30 min. dreading it but hopefully it will be more fun than i expect.

i'm sad that samtan can't send us off. and i'm sad that i won't get to meet samtan in the airport because we'll be at different terminals. ahh turtle i'm going to miss you so much

you'll miss me too right, haha

i need to rmb to sms you tomorrow! i wonder if you will miss me, but i'm not counting on it.
i'll miss you though, i think. i could kill myself if i forget to sms you tmr -.-

k time to sleep. and tomorrow will be the day.

my aircon is spoilt. so i'm irritated

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

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Thursday, November 01, 2007

people always leave

but sometimes they come back.
so i'm gonna keep hoping (:

so i'm leaving tomorrow.
i'm really just so reluctant to leave la, but then again, maybe it might end up being fun.
but it's not about the fun, argh.

samtan i will miss you! haha

i'll only see you in December!

unless we bump into each other in the NZ airport yeah

TURTLES FOR LIFE <3

so i guess i'm really gonna miss lotsa people!
and i seriously wonder how i am going to survive without music! because my dad doesn't allow me to bring either of the ipods. even my video la

but now that i have touchy why can't i bring video. ahwell.
shall sing in my own head then. haha. or maybe borrow? haha nevermind i survived without music during OBS too! but then again, we kept singing songs during OBS! haha

alrighty i shall go off now. maybe the next time i post (if i ever do) will be when i come back, on the 12th

and by then my brother will be back too! haha i'm anticipating the day he comes back

RAH i want to go shopping in NZ! go go go. it's the single thing i'm looking forward to.
i hope it's fun!

hope i get to sit with nic and jf on the plane, then it would be a good start to the whole trip yeah.
rather than sit with _ or _ haha woooops.
toodles

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wow i just heard somebody sneeze. came from outside the window, means somewhere on the street. O: loud sneeze.

anyway,
i wonder, what do dreams mean?
i really don't want to dream about you :/ but you just keep appearing! BLAH.
and it's not as if it's a good dream or what. more like a nightmare.

maybe i'm looking too much into minor things like this.

i really don't look forward to tomorrow. we're flying to NZ. and i keep telling myself that it's because i'm lazy but i guess maybe that's not the real reason why i don't want to go.
but then, my luggage's all packed and everything so i guess i don't have much choice since all the money and everything has already been spent.
if only if only if only.

and i want to talk to you! but i just don't know what to say ):
the cursor hovers over your name but i just can't bring myself to click it. :/

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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

you know what?
the happier you are, the sadder i am.
and i guess it's all relative, considering it's all because of her.
i don't want to be like you. so i shan't let all this get to me. but.. i don't know.

i wish nothing will change
i wish that next year, everything will stay the same.
really, that's all i want.
and i'm hoping that it's possible because i don't know what i'd do if it were any different.

rah. nobody will ever understand how i feel ):

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Monday, October 29, 2007

	DAMN ITTTTTTTTTTTT ): what is wrong with me ):
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